Tuesday, 3 November 2015

Acne killed my confidence and self-esteem.

To people who only suffer from an occasional spot here and there, it might not seem like anything. But for people who suffer from acne on a day to day basis, it can kill any confidence that they had. For me personally when I first started breaking out I was around 13, and at first it didn't really concern me. My parents were more concerned of the scaring it might leave (my mum suffered with acne for over 10 years, and still has the scars) so they were quick to get me to a dermatologist and I was given Isotretinoin.  This worked amazing and the doctors actually stopped me taking it just over half way through the 12 month treatment because my skin looked amazing. I gained so much confidence in the year and a half that my skin was clear, that when they started appearing again I kind of wanted to just ignore them and pretend it wasn't happening again. 

After trying some of the over counter treatments again they just got worse, so I went back to the hospital and they actually refused to re prescribe me Isotretinoin because "they weren't that bad". At this stage they were actually worse than when I was first prescribed Isotretinoin. Over 2 years later I'm still waiting for my follow up appointment and my confidence has fallen dramatically. I can't look people in the eyes when I'm talking to them, I try to cover my checks and chin with my hands when people are talking to me and I wouldn't dream of leaving the house without a full face of concealer and foundation (which isn't really covering my blotchy acne covered red skin anymore).  I would almost go as far as to say it's ruining my social life and my self esteem and confidence. 

This has actually been quite a covered topic in the media, especially if you follow the Kardashian/ Jenners. Kendall Jenner recently opened up about her struggle with acne on her website, which you can see here! Kendall commented on how "acne completely ruined my self-esteem, but it doesn't define who I am". Even though it's something that doesn't change who you are in the slightest it's so hard to realise that it doesn't make you a different person to who you was before acne. It shouldn't change your favourite places to go, or how other people see you. 

There definitely isn't any quick fixes but there are plenty of worse things in the world than a face or body full of acne. 

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Friday, 30 October 2015


I've always loved Halloween so I thought this was the perfect time to try a Pinterest recipe idea. I found these 'mummy dogs' randomly and thought they looked quite cute. I didn't really know what to expect making these because I'd only seen in photos, but I was quite impressed if I say say myself. 

What you'll need:
Frankfurter hot dogs.
Jus rol puff pastry.
Some milk.

The first thing you need to do is leave the Jus Rol pastry out at room temperature for at least 10 minutes, this makes it easier to work with and it also prevents it cracking as easily. Pre heat the oven to 200 degrees (you might need to adjust this slightly depending on your oven.) Once it's reached room temperate, unroll the pastry and cut it into two pieces. Roll the excess pastry back into the packaging and store it in the fridge. 

With the first half of pastry using a knife, cut the pastry into thin slices roughly half a cm in width.

If you're using tin sausages like me, drain them out of the brine and using some tissue dry them off so the pastry can stick to them. With the pre cut slices, wrap the pastry around the sausages leaving slight gaps so when the pastry expands it doesn't cover the whole sausage. You need to leave about an inch between the helmet and the body to create a face. 

Once you've placed them on an oven tray, brush over the pastry with some milk for a golden finish, and place in the oven for 15-20 minutes or until the pastry is golden. 

After you've let them cool, using a cocktail stick use the mustard to create two small eyes to add the final touches to you mummy dogs.

I hope you've enjoyed this simple Halloween snack recipe, if you try these leave me a comment down below or tag me in a photo on Instagram.

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Thursday, 29 October 2015

Matte Foundations: FIRST IMPRESSIONS!

Finding the perfect drugstore foundation for me is a nightmare! I have extremely oily skins and I suffer with acne, so this foundation needs to work miracles. Over summer I'd been using No.7 beautifully matte foundation which was fine because I was on holiday so I was only wearing it for a short amount of time, and when I was home I had a tan so my acne had cleared up significantly. Now that I'm in work all day it just isn't cutting it. I went to Boots and took advantage of the 3 for 2 they had across all make up and picked up these three foundations and a BB cream. 

Rimmel stay matte foundation claims to be lightweight shine control, liquid mousse foundation. I've never used a mousse foundation before so I didn't really know what to expect. It retails for £5.99 so it's definitely not expensive at all. I got it in the shade light porcelain and it is too light, and also quite pink but I'm going to make it work anyway. I tried all four of these foundations on separate areas of my face and this one was quite hard to blend but that could be because it's the wrong shade for my skin. It did stay quite matte for the four hours I did try it, so I am excited to see how this products lasts when worn for a whole day! The one downfall I've noticed for this foundation already is that it doesn't offer much coverage which is something I prefer but with a good concealer it might work. 

The second one I selected was this Seventeen miracle matte foundation which claims to give up to 16 hours of shine control, which is definitely what sold me this product. It also retails for £5.99 so it's perfect if you're on a budget or like me just testing different ones. Unlike the other three that I've just tested on different parts of my face, I've actually worn this to work for a full day. Once you get past the initial struggle of trying to blend this product, it was less shiny than any other foundation I've used. I've always used a foundation brush to apply my foundation, but I found it virtually impossible with this product because it's very thick and seems really powdery so I have to use my fingers to apply this which isn't a problem. Again I got the wrong shade in this foundation, I got soft ivory but I could've done with one shade darker. 

Based on first impressions this one is probably my favourite. I've seen loads of bloggers and youtubers raving about this product and I can see why. L'oreal Paris infallible matte retails at slightly more than the other two at £7.99, but still it is quite reasonable. I got this in shade 11 Vanilla and it's a perfect match for my face. It's really runny which makes it so much easier to blend with a brush and it does offer medium to high coverage. Again you'd probably need to use concealer but it is the easiest out of the four to work with. As for staying matte Seventeen miracle matte possibly has the edge.

I've never tried a BB cream so I thought I'd give this one a go since it is for oily skin. The concept of this Maybelline dream pure 8 in 1 BB cream is good, but it's not for people who suffer from large breakouts. I got this in light and although it matches my skin colour perfectly it doesn't cover blemishes at all. This is definitely something that would be perfect for a good skin days or if you're just popping to the shop or going for petrol, but other than that I'm not really expecting very good results from this product because of the little coverage it has to offer. It was only £6.99 so even if I can't make it work now, I'll keep it for when I go on holiday next year when I don't need much coverage. 

I hope you've enjoyed my first impressions of these foundations, there will be full reviews of each one coming in the next couple of weeks after I've tested them all out properly! Leave me a comment down below if you think I've left out an amazing foundation for oily skin so I can give it a try! 

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Saturday, 24 October 2015


Since we've just entered a new season, I thought I'd go shopping for some autumn clothes as I don't really have any autumn/ winter clothes in my wardrobe. I went to couple of different shops over a couple of weeks, but I thought I'd save everything to do one big haul, so here goes. 

The first item I knew I wanted to purchase for autumn was a pair of these black chunky boots. I tried a couple of pairs on but most of them seemed too big around my ankles, but eventually I found this pair in Matalan retailing at just £25.00. The soles are really chunky rubber, which makes them really easy and comfortable to walk in and the actual boot itself is suede with some elastic detailing on the side which stretches to slide your foot in. At first I didn't know how comfortable there would be because they are quite chunky but they're really light and I could wear them all day long. They're also very versatile and you can wear them with a lot of different outfits including dresses and jeans. 

The next thing I got was from Newlooks 9:15 teen range. I wanted one of these faux fur gillet's last year but I didn't know if I'd actually wear it, but I gave into temptation this year and got one anyway. It was only £19.99 which is a bargain compared to some of the others I tried on. I got this from the teen range because I tried some on in the adults range and they just seemed too long. This one falls just above my bum so it is quite short, but I only wear high waisted jeans so it's perfect for that. It's a really light cream shaggy faux fur, that's really soft to touch with a silky lining inside. I actually had to purchase a size 12-13 years in this and I usually wear a size 6, so if you're around a 4-10 then I'd definitely take a look at this.

My next purchase was from Topshop. I love ripped jeans, but because I'm quite short I find it really difficult to find some where the rips are actually in the right place, and the only style that actually do are the Jamie skinny jeans. They are quite pricey at £42, but they keep their shape well and last a long time. I got a size 6 and they fit me perfectly so I would say they are true to size. 

They have brown stitching details which I really like because all my other denim jeans just have normal blue stitching. I also like that these are high waisted because I hate low rise jeans, they never fit me right and I always end up wearing a belt because I've got to get a bigger size and they are just a nightmare. They do state that these are ankle grazers but they fit me as normal length jeans. 

Miss Selfridge is definitely a shop that I find very hit and miss. Sometimes I can go in there and love everything and other times I can't find anything! This shopping trip was definitely a hit and miss episode, but I did however find this grey boucle tunic. It's from the petites department but it is quite long regardless, so it would fit anyone length wise. It has a high neck which is quite tight around the bottom of your neck and then the rest of the top swings out. It is sleeveless so not idea for the weather we're currently experiencing in the UK, but it does look lovely with a pair or white skinny jeans or a pair of basic leggings. I purchased a size 6 in this and it fits perfectly around the arms and neck so it is true to size.

Something a little more practical for this weather, is this thin knitted mustard jumper from H&M. It was only £12.99 so it's quite reasonable for a knitted jumper. They also had this is a few different colours so if mustard yellow isn't for you there's a grey option instead. The sleeves were rolled up when I purchased this, but they are actually full length sleeves if you unroll them. To add a bit of detail to this otherwise plain jumper there some triangle detailing from the waist to the hips. 

I originally wanted a white button up shirt, but after trying on about a hundred (slight exaggeration) I came to the conclusion that they actually don't suit me so I went for a blouse style instead. I can't remember exactly how much I paid for this, but I think it was somewhere around £22.00, which is slightly on the more expensive side for a top from Newlook. It's a really soft material that flows really nice. The sleeves are three quarter length and they have the same crochet detailing as the top and bottom of the blouse. It also has a little button at the back which is quite a pretty detail. I wish I got this top in black at the same time I purchased this because it's really comfy and super easy to wear, because you can dress it up or wear it more casual. 

I've literally been obsessed with this beige mac. It's from the children's department in Newlook, but I got age 12-13 years so it does come up quite large. It was £27.99, but you can wear it with so much and it can really make a plain outfit looks a lot more dressy. It has rolled up sleeves, but you can unroll them if you just wanted them to be normal sleeves. The open front also means you can wear this with all different styles of top and you can still see them so it's prefect for it you're going for a meal and you need a light coat to wear with your jeans, or if you're going to a shopping centre and don't want to be too warm. They also have this in khaki, camel and black too. 

The final thing I purchased was also from Newlook and it's this lovely rust halter neck wrap front playsuit, that was £22.99. The V neckline is really low, so I do have to use a safety pin to keep it closed but that's fine because you can't actually see that I've tried to alter it. It has a cinched waist which is really flattering because the material of the shorts flares out. I love that it comes with a gold necklace because you haven't got to worry about finding the right length accessories, but it does unclip so if you don't like it you can take it off. Because there is a lot of detailing at the front I really like that the back just has a simple tied neck detailing with an open back. 

I hope you all enjoyed seeing some of the things available in the shops right now! Leave a comment down below of your must have autumnal item. 

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Sunday, 18 October 2015

Things I wish I'd known.

Your teenage years are some of the hardest years you'll ever face. These are some of the things I wish I'd realised during my teenage years. 

You are responsible for your own happiness.

You don't need loads of friends or a boyfriend/ girlfriend to be happy.

If you don't want to date someone then don't. 

Listen to your instincts. 

Take as many opportunities as you can.

Old songs will make you reminisce old memories.

You'll listen to depressing songs when you're sad.

And possibly look at yourself in the mirror when you're crying and end up crying more.

Crying doesn't make you weak.

Boys cry too.

So do you're parents and grandparents.

You're going to get over emotional for no reason what so ever and need a hug off your mum.

Period pains hurt.

So do wearing heels for the first time.

You don't have to wear the shortest or tightest clothes to stand out.

Be honest to yourself and obsess over whatever you want to.

Spend your time with the people who appreciate you the most.

Spend as much time with family as you can, they wont always be around.

Make decisions that you'll thank yourself for later in life. 

Being shy isn't always a bad thing. 

Neither is being confident.

Mental health isn't something to be ashamed of. 

Neither is your sexuality, religion or beliefs.

Just because someone doesn't agree with you, it doesn't make either of you wrong.

Everyone is entitled to an opinion.

Don't be ashamed to tell people how you really feel. 

Honesty (within reason) is the best policy.

 Acting dull around him doesn't make you any cuter.

You'll always remember more song lyrics than school work.

You'll forget at least one piece of homework in your lifetime.

You might even enjoy the lesson you hate if you try.

You'll hate school or a teacher at least once a year.

But, you'll definitely miss it when it's over.

"Don't tell anyone" actually means don't tell anyone.

When you bitch about someone they'll eventually find out.

Same goes for when someone bitches about you.

You're going to screen shot things on your phone and send them in group chats.

Boys don't have to be the first one to text you.

If you want to text him, do it. What's the worst that can happen?

If you really like someone tell them.

Don't let anyone make you do something you're not comfortable with.

Be responsible.

Not all relationships last forever.

A thigh gap isn't important. 

If you're comfortable with the way you look, then it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

Your weight, hair, skin or imperfections don't change who you are.

Acne isn't the end of the world. It gets better. Eventually.

Wear as much or as little make up, that makes you happy.

Pick a style that you like, not what's popular.

You're going to think you're having a mid life crisis at about 16. Then probably every year after that.

You don't have to have your whole life planned out. 

Everything does eventually get better.

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